The first new blog on the new website! Isn’t this exciting?! Well, it’s not really that exciting, but it is nice to have a blog where I can add pictures for free from right off my hard drive! So what does everyone think of the white on black? Too hard to read or is it cool? It can be changed if necessary, but I would like to hear what people think.
These past two nights have been great! Both nights I have had the chance to hang out with my friend Suzanne! She is so much fun and we pretty much laugh really hard the whole time that we are together. Last night we went and painted some pottery….let me tell you….that was an adventure! It’s nice to be able to laugh till we cry and have good conversation all in the same hang out time!
Something that I have been struggling with since Ricky died is wanting to read my Bible. I just don’t want to. I’m not mad at God or anything, I’m just not interested. I’m sure that sounds bad, but it is really not meant in a disrespectful way. So I was talking with Suzanne about this tonight. Let me tell you, it is really cool to be able to talk to Ricky’s fiance about this, when her pain is so much deeper than mine, and have her completely understand and not be judgmental or condemning. She gave me a great reminder that we don’t read the Bible for God’s benefit. He is still God whether or not we read it. But we read it for us. God gave it to us, for us, to benefit us, and it’s in these hard times that our discipline in reading it leads us back to him and guides us each minute of the day. That was a really good reminder for me. So I am going to start reading The Message version of the New Testament tomorrow. I know a paraphrase isn’t something to be used for any deep Bible study, but I am not looking for deep Bible study right now. I am looking for my heart, and who knows, maybe God wants to use a version of the Bible that I haven’t read before to touch me in a new way. Maybe not. We will see!
I am really thankful today. Thankful for the faithful God that I have. That even in my faithlessness, he is still faithful. That He is holy whether we worship him or not; our worship does not add to His holiness. I am thankful that Suzanne lives in Atlanta now and that I have found such a good and safe friend in her. I hope that I can be the same for her.